Topsy Turvy

lots of things going on..things are overwhelming.. i try catching up with it but I am no good at running..so I just watch it pass right in front of me..ungrabable you know, TIME.. I need a getaway so I can get away from all this.. and I'm counting days for it!

new friends are great, but
sometimes they can be pretty much pain in the ears.. they talk a LOT so they didnt have much time to listen, even to themselves. no biggie. i’m used to that.

old friends are busy, but there’s always time to catch up with each other..

families are the best. have some ups and downs but blood is thicker than my patience, so i persevere -

job?
looking for a new one.wish me luck!

Merancang..

Semua orang ada perancangan. Mesti ada perancangan. Hidup mesti ada tujuan. Tapi tak semua orang dapat menyempurnakan hasrat dan tujuan hidup. Kita manusia. Manusia hanya mampu merancang. Cuma Allah yang berupaya menentukan hala tuju perancangan kita. Seteliti mana pun perancangan, sekuat mana pun keazaman, dan setaksub mana pun kita dengan perancangan yang kita buat, kalau Allah tak izinkan maka perancangan iti takkan menemui kejayaan. Kun fayakun. Semua dah tertulis untuk kita sejak azali. Qada' dan qadar. Sekiranya perrjalanan hidup kita berjalan seperti yang dirancang, Alhamdulillah. Jikalau perancangan kita mengalami kepayahan, rintangan dan kegagalan, percayalah bahawa perancangan Allah untuk kita lebih baik dari perancangan yang kita buat. Setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Jangan terlalu yakin dengan perancangan yang telah kita buat kerana jika ditakdirkan tidak seperti yang diharapkan atau menemui jalan buntu, hati akan hancur luluh dan punah, iman akan goyah, keyakinan akan luntur dan pertimbangan mula kabur. Perlu sabar ; peringatan untuk diri sendiri. Perlu memohon, berdoa dan tawakal kepada Allah setelah berusaha ; juga peringatan untuk diri sendiri.

“Tidak ada yang putus asa dari rahmat Tuhannya melainkan orang yang sesat.” (Surah Al-Hijr, ayat 56) 

Tiada daya dan upaya kecuali beserta Allah.

chidapunyasukala

...of Stay-up Pills and Sing-along Song

dance to the beat and sing your heart out. problems can wait....

..of The Beach and The Waterfall

no matter how salty or tasteless the water is from both ends, they'll meet in the middle someday....

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...of the Empty Glass and Empty Mind

try filling the glass with water when you want milk
thirst quenching, but your thirst of milk is still there
you surely drink the milk if you see any right now, 
eventhough your thirst are now all gone
it's the thing you want.
even if you know you're not going to drink it at the moment
you will still take it, saving for later

you'll hide the milk from other's sight
in fears others might took it, or even dare eyeing on it

let  it cold in the fridge, or serve it nice with ice
oooohhh...even the thought of it is refreshing!



you did'nt even thank the water that drench your throat.....

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..of Forgetting and Remembering

remember

to pray
to live

to love

to forgive

to smile

to laugh

to dream

to think

to work hard

to persevere

to stay calm

to loosen up

to chill

to take a break

 to follow your hearts desire

to dream

forget

anger

jealousy

things that upset you

your crush

your ex

embarrassing moments

things that don't matter
sadness
pain

live life to the fullest,enjoy to the max!

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Life is like a wheel..

Betul kata orang tua-tua, 


"tolonglah orang yg dalam kesusahan,satu hari nanti kalo kita yang dalam kesusahan orang akan tolong kita pulak.."


Betul. Betul sangat-sangat. Even kesusahan tu tak jadi pada diri aku sendiri, tapi jadi kat family aku..and lucky enough ade orang yang baik hati yang mampu menolong on the spot. Memang suma orang pun cuak lah mase tu.Benda ni bukan boleh buat main-main. Tapi tak kisah la sume tu, yang aq nak highlight kat sini things that happen last night memang exactly the same yang happen to my friend that i helped years ago. EXACTLY the same situation. kakak aku dah cuak lebih dah..aku pun pening dah fikir. Tapi tu lah, what goes around comes around. To be honest aku tak risau sangat pun semalam..siyes tak risau,cuma dok pening la kejap fikir.Tercungap2 jugak la berlari semalam...Syukur Allah tu Maha Mengetahui segala apa yang berlaku. Syukur Allah bukakkan hati seorang manusia ni untuk menolong kami. Semoga Allah ampunkan semua dosa dia dan tunjukkan dia jalan yang benar, luruskan dia dari kesesatan. Aku ikhlas, dia orang yang baik. So moral of the story, tak salah tolong orang. Mungkin satu hari nanti kita akan ditimpa dengan kesusahan yang sama tara, Allah akan hantar seseorang pulak untuk tolong kita.. :)



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Listen..NOT!!!

people tend to forget or they just simply don't care..it's hard to find people who would really truly listen to you. they like to tell stories, and i like listening to it, but when it comes my turn, i feel like they don't give a damn.. they do listen, but i can see the insincerity in their face and the fake smile in the end of my stories when they saw me look at them for their respond.. and the most annoying thing, the uninterested sound they make when you're telling your stories.. that's the bad side of being able to read people..it made you feel awful but u have to pretend that u didn't even notice it..and that is why from now on, i'm gonna forbid myself from sharing stories that are not important to tell ( it's hard, but i'm gonna try my best )..

hey, i am a good listener, but don't forget,

i am an excellent storyteller too..

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The Things Which Are't Love..(reblog)

Your salary is not love and your word is not love. Your clothes are not love and holding hands is not love. Sex is not love and a kiss is not love. Long letters are not love and a text is not love. Flowers are not love and a box of chocolates is not love. Sunsets are not love and photographs are not love. The stars are not love and a beach under the moonlight is not love. The smell of someone else on your pillow is not love and the feeling of their skin touching your skin is not love. Heart-shaped candy is not love and an overseas holiday is not love. The truth is not love and winning an argument is not love. Warm coffee isn't love and cheap cards bought from stores are not love.  Tears are not love and laughter is not love. A head on a shoulder is not love and messages written at the front of books given as gifts are not love. Apathy is not love and numbness is not love. A pain in your chest is not love and clenching your fist is not love. Rain is not love.

Only you. Only you, are love.

~reblog from I Wrote This For You. nice one..

Blank

 so many words i want to write, so many things i want to tell

but all seems stuck in my head

...i can feel it racing,cramming at the narrow tube of thought

        waiting to burst out,

        all of it

        at once

    

but all the commotions created a stampede in the mind, mixing it all together

just like colors

when all mixed up in a swirl, the only thing that left

                       is blank 

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Trust

This is the first time I've been lied by the person whom I supposed to trust and I trusted without any objection and she lied right in my face and I totally believe in what she said until I found out the ugly truth and how horrible a person she really is and what exactly she have done and that she twisted the story and made a fool of me but luckily i met the truth and I've been told about it and i feel so sick looking at her right now and I don't think I have anyone to trust there anymore...

I WANT OUT.

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Britney,baby......

i'm soooooooooooooo busy..tapi otak blank,dlm kepala xleh nak masuk ape pon..friday fever kot..hfffffffffphhh

~ my busyness is killing me

i must confess, please now kill me

when i am busy i lose my mind

give me peace of miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiind

fire me boss this one time~!

chidapunyasukala

Whale of time

having a time for myself doesn't mean spending the time all by myself

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Alone in the crowd..

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Wrong Move,

..Looks like the decision i made just now was a bad one, it really does poke a hole in my heart..

Oh stop it, you!

have you ever be in the moment where someone said things like these :

" i'm doing this only because of you "

or

" i'm  here and so glad to see you, everybody else doesn't matter "

i've been in this situation, twice. and each time, in my heart i cry the tears of joy..

~thank you friends! I really feel appreciated. :')

chidapunyasukala

TRANSITION

-aku ingat kau

-kau hitam (gelap)

-kamu mulut bising

-tau nak mengamok je 

-muka nmpk bengis lg

I AM STILL THE SAME PERSON.I JUST LEARN SELF-CONTROL AND NOT TO TAKE THINGS TOO SERIOUSLY.IF YOU SEE ME ANYWHERE DON'T BE AFRAID TO SAY HI.YOU WILL BE SURPRISE BECAUSE THERE'S MORE THAN MEETS THE EYES.

*just realize how messed up i am as a child.haha..kecik-kecik dah bengis sampai that become the first thought of me a person that haven't seen me for more than 10 years can remember.

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2 days

6 months in 2 days..

- can 2 days cover the 6 months' time?

if you want, it can..

if you try, it can..

- were there enough time in those 2 days to do everything that you have planned in the last 6months?

of course the answer is no. actually nothing's done according to plan..we just go with what came across our mind that time..

- it went well?

there's the ups and downs..we just have to look pass the 'downs' and enjoy the 'ups' moments..

- the best part of all?

for me i would say the first day when we gather up at one table,having good food and a long chat..catching up with each other.everybody's laughing their heart out regardless of other people watching..that's the best thing..

- will you do this all over again?

 HECK YEAH!!!but hopefully i don't have to wait for it for another 6 months..

HOW ABOUT YOU?

chidapunyasukala 

FACEPUNCH!

I think I HAVE to have this book...

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Is It This or Is It That..?!

 I had a dream this early morning..
A dream so alarming that it woke me up from my slumber. A dream so frightening that it make me shiver. A dream so shocking that it makes me feel sick to the bones. There's this saying, if you dream after dawn (or accurately after Subuh ) it is definitely the works of the God-damn Satan. But instead, the dream made me come to a realization, of all things that I've done...May Allah forgive me for all of that..




~still can't for get the stare 




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